Solitude

I’m now reading Her Fearful Symmetry ~ Audrey Niffenegger.

He [Robert] was not ready for her absence; no one he had loved had died, until Elspeth. Other people were absent, but no one was dead. Elspeth? Even her name seemed empty, as though it had detached itself from her and was floating untethered in his mind. How am I supposed to live without you? It was not a matter of the body; his body would carry on as usual. The problem was located in the word how: how he would live, but without Elspeth the flavor, the manner, the method of living were lost to him. He would have to relearn solitude.

She has a way of capturing the essence of a feeling. She draws it out and leaves me fascinated.

How do you relearn solitude? That really is the hardest thing to do… it’s what makes loss of a relationship/loved one/work whatever you hold dear, difficult. You can never quite imagine not having someone or something anymore. Sometimes it is that very knowledge that keeps people in jobs and relationships they shouldn’t be in, in the first place. You wanna go, leave and not look behind but the fear of solitude holds you back. It takes balls and a made up mind to go and stay gone and break all contacts.

That book pulled me in, left me in suspense!!!! It’s about Eddie and Elspeth who switch identities after Eddie falls pregnant with Jack. Valentina and Julia are born. ‘Elspeth’ dies and leaves everything to them. Becomes a ghost and later kills Valentina and takes her body. Robert is tormented and eventually leaves her.

The things people do for this thing called love is insane… This is a fictional book and it is amazingly great. It captures your interest. Makes you feel their emotion and read as if you are living their life.